"Aishiteru"
by Kamui Ikari
cem_kamui@hotmail.com
Hello everyone!!! Let me introduce myself. I am Kamui Ikari (my true name is
Claudio) I am from of Argentina and I am a great fan of CCS and other works
of Clamp, and this is my first story of CCS. My english is not very good so
it can have grammatical errors. This story is focused in Sakura and on what
she thinks when she finds about the feelings of Tomoyo. I hope you like it
and I will see you at the end of the story.
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Disclaimer: Card Captor Sakura belongs to Clamp, Kodansha and other
companies. This story was only made for amusement, don't sue me.
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Aishiteru
I didn't know. Really, I didn't know. I didn't know that Tomoyo Daidouji, my
best friend, was in love with me. She didn't tell it to me. I found out
while reminiscing on my past, remembering the points that I couldn't
understand. One was that Tomoyo had told me that she loved me and that when
we were older she would explain it to me better.
Another point was when she requested me if she could cut my hair, I told her
yes but I also asked her why. She said, "Because I like you, Sakura." The
only thing that I remember is that I blushed. While I am recumbent, looking
toward the sky shattered in this cold night, I remember the things that she
had told me about her "special person", that she wanted her "special person"
to be happy. I am so stupid, other people understood it, why I am the only
person that doesn't understand anything? Why I had never found out about
the other's feelings? Syaoran admitted it to me before leaving toward Hong
Kong, the feelings of my brother toward Yukito and vice versa and the
feelings of Tomoyo toward me.
Tomoyo-chan...why am I your "special person"? Why me? Even knowing it, why
don't I get scared? Others had gotten scared but I am not afraid, I am not.
I get out of bed and I go towards my dresser. I open it and I see the
costumes that she made me for the capture of the cards. There are so many
and of varied designs. I always found it strange that she made me those
costumes and recorded me on video. She always tried to be present at the
moment when I captured the cards to film me. I didn't care but sometimes I
feared that something might happen to her, several times already, with the
card "The Erase" and the fight with Eriol. I believe that that it was her
way of showing her love for me. She must have thought that her feelings
would never be returned, that because of my stupidity I would never find
about her feelings. I close the dresser and I go to the bed, it is already
late and I should go to the school, tomorrow I will continue thinking of
Tomoyo.
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I wake up when I hear a voice calling me. It was an unknown voice but I
make an effort and I wake up but I see that somebody's in my room.
"Sakura-chan."
I get out of bed and I see Tomoyo. She's in my room. She has a white dress,
and is smiling.
"Tomoyo-chan, what are you doing here?"
"I came to say goodbye to you, Sakura-chan"
My heart stopped when I heard those words.
"To say goodbye?" I ask, shocked.
"Yes, Sakura-chan," Tomoyo calmly says.
"But, where are you going?"
"I don't know where I'll go, I only know that trip we all make arrived this
moment."
"All?"
"Yes, even you will make it."
"I will see you again?" I ask, while I feel tears begin to fall for my cheeks.
"No," Tomoyo says with sadness.
When I hear this I get up and I run to hug her, crying. Having her in my arms,
I feel something that I had never felt before. A warmth hugs my heart in a
special way and it beats quickly. I hug her strongly and I don't want to let
her go.
"Don't go, please," I say, babbling.
"Sakura-chan, can you promise me something?"
"Eh?"
"Can you promise me that you will be happy?"
"I can't be happy without you," I say with sadness.
"I was happy to be by your side. You have given me a lot, and I will never
forget you."
"Tomoyo-chan..." I begin to cry.
Suddenly she looks at me smiling and puts a hand on my cheek.
"You are cute, Sakura-chan..."
I blush when I feel her hand, suddenly she comes closer and her lips touch
mine for a moment. I freeze but my heart emanates a very intense warmth and
I see that she's leaving me.
"Tomoyo!" I scream crying
She looks at me with a smile and suddenly her body starts to disappear,
beginning with her feet.
"Aishiteru, Sakura-chan," she says before disappearing completely.
"TOMOYO!"
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I wake up, startled and with tears in my eyes. It was just a dream, only a
dream but I don't trust the dreams. They are usually sometimes premonitory,
and I have already had several before, the only thing that I had left fixed
in the mind was the kiss that Tomoyo gave me was and her final words:
"Aishiteru, Sakura." Then I remembered what Eriol told me before leaving
for England. Then I found that what he told me had two meanings, not only
referring to someone who goes far away like in the case of Syaoran but
rather it also referred to a person that goes far away because that person
...dies.
I couldn't accept that Tomoyo would die, it must be a dream. I look at my
clock and I see that I still have time to go to school, but I don't want to
sleep, I prefer to solve the topic of Tomoyo. I took a picture of Tomoyo of
the many that I have and I observe it: she is smiling while her hair moves
by the wind. I like her smile, the eyes that she has, her voice, my life is
not the same one since I met her at the first time, she was always to my
side, she gave me support in the difficult moments and if she leaves...I
don't know what to do.
I look inside myself for the answer to my question. Who is my special
person? After a long while I discover the answer, but I also found that I am
late for school. I go to the dining room to have breakfast. I greet my
father and my brother and took my rollerblades and I go quickly so that I
can make it to school. I enter the classroom and I sit down. I feel that
the time doesn't pass, and Tomoyo doesn't appear. I become nervous, the dream
returns with force. I tried to forget it, when a voice makes me lift my head.
"Hello, Sakura-chan."
I can't believe what I see, it was Tomoyo and she was smiling. My heart
begins to beat strongly.
"Tomoyo..."
I feel a tear fall to my cheek, but I dry it with my hand. But I don't
care about that. She's here, all is well. I only care about that.
"Hello, Tomoyo-chan," I say with great relief and a great smile.
I couldn't concentrate on the class. I looked indirectly at Tomoyo, the only
thing that I wanted was to be able to have one minute alone with her to
speak. In recess I was not able to due to our friends. So, I will have to
wait until classes finish.
The class concludes, and all the kids leave. I see that Tomoyo preparing her
things and I come closer to her.
"Tomoyo-chan?" I ask.
"Yes, Sakura-chan?" Tomoyo responds with a smile.
"Can we speak now in the park?" I ask her.
"Sure," Tomoyo says.
As we're leaving the school I see Tomoyo's bodyguards waiting for her. I
feel a little nervous. I know that they take care of her but I don't want
them here. Tomoyo comes closer to them and she tells them something, later
they leave and she comes closer to me.
"Can we go?" she asks me with a smile.
"Yes"
While we go walking toward the park, we speak about several things. I feel
fine knowing that she was fine. I take her hand and we continue walking
until we arrive at the park.
I sit down in one of the swings of the park and Tomoyo in another. I feel
nervous, I don't know how to start.
"Tomoyo-chan?"
"Yes, Sakura-chan?"
"Well... I... I..."
"What's happen, Sakura-chan?"
"Will you go away to some distant place?" I ask finally.
"Eh?" Tomoyo asks surprised.
"Will you leave me?" I ask quietly.
"No, Sakura-chan. I won't leave you."
"Really?" I ask hopeful.
"Yes" Tomoyo says smiling.
"Do you mean that you will stay forever with me?" I ask anxiously.
"Yes," Tomoyo answers.
When I listening this I get up and hug her, with tears in my eyes.
"Thank you, thank you," I say happily.
Tomoyo looks at me, smiling, and when I see this I feel that I'll lose
control, and I let my feelings dominate me, I look at her with sweetness and
I smile.
"Tomoyo-chan?"
"What, Sakura-chan?"
"What I wanted to tell you is... I want to ask you for forgiveness, for the
many times I didn't understand what you really wanted to tell me," I say
seriously.
"About what?" Tomoyo asks.
"About your feelings."
Tomoyo becomes serious and she tried to get free of my hug, but I don't
leave her.
"Please, I really want to ask you for forgiveness for not finding out about it
before," I say with sincerity.
"Sakura..." Tomoyo says.
"But... I..."
Then I knew that it was the moment.
"Aishiteru...Tomoyo-chan" I say finally.
Tomoyo opened her eyes and froze.
"It's true. You are the one I can love, you are my 'special person', you are
everything to me, not Syaoran . He's only a friend to me. Please my beloved
Tomoyo-chan, give me a chance to be happy with you...and you with me," I
said with sincerity while I put my head on her shoulder.
Tomoyo doesn't respond. She is still shocked. I wait for her reply, while I
run my hand through her hair; it's smooth and beautiful. Suddenly Tomoyo
returns my embrace strongly and she looked at me smiling.
"Aishiteru...Sakura-chan," she says with a smile.
When I hear her words, the words that I wanted to hear, I come closer and
kiss her on the lips; my heart emits the same warmth that I felt in the
dream. I pulled away from her and Tomoyo kissed me again. After that I
hugged her tightly.
"I'm so happy, Tomoyo-chan," I say happily.
"My Sakura-chan, me too. You are my true love," Tomoyo says with tears in her
eyes.
"Tomoyo-chan, do you want to be my girlfriend?"
"Yes!!!" Tomoyo answers happily.
Then I take her hand and we go toward my house, I care anything because she
is with me, I am sure that we will be together forever.
That is what I most desire.
OWARI (The End)
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Index of Japanese terms:
Aishiteru: Means "I Love You"
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Author's Notes:
1. I like scenes where Sakura and Tomoyo are together, the two make
a beautiful couple.
2. I want to know a thing: Where are the Tomoyo x Sakura fans? I know that
they are there, t should have several people, I want to see their
stories, I don't care they are bad, the important thing is the two are
together, come on!!!.
I hope you liked this story, if you didn't like it, if the Syaoran's fans
want to kill me for pairing Sakura together with Tomoyo ^_^, anything, so
please e-mail me to cem_kamui@hotmail.com. I wait your messages.
I want to give thanks to following people and I dedicate them this story:
_Fuuma Monou by put this fic in the Clamp Fan Fiction Archive
_Kishiji Bando for making "Caught it, Got It, Caught You" the first Tomoyo x
Sakura fic
_The Amazoness Duo for their two stories: Fallen Horses and Candid Camera,
those which they are very good, and I hope to see more stories from you.
_Elizabeth for "To Hear you Breathing", you made Tomoyo psychopath!!!
_Lizabell Waters for "Voltarian Mush", it is very funny.
AND to all the readers, especially the fans of Tomoyo x Sakura.
Until the next one!!!
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