http://clampfix.fanworks.net/ccs-fix/angst.txt </head><body><pre>Disclaimer: I do not own the characters....I'm SOOOO poor....CCS belongs to Clamp....they are so lucky. Notes: Beware, angst ahead. There might be mild cursing. I don't know what else....have fun readin! By Livingdeadgirl002 aka Tomoyo Hiiragizawa Tomoyo smiled lightly as she greeted her classmates Monday morning. But inside she was seething. 'I hate school,' she thought bitterly. 'I hate everyone...I hate you Sakura, because I love you.' Tomoyo took her seat next to Eriol, one of the few people who understood her. He smiled at her but didn't say anything, senseing that she was angry. RING. School was out. Finally, in Tomoyo's opinion. About damn time. If she had to sit through one more minute of Sakura and Syaoran being sappy, she might have screamed and killed someone. Namely herself and Sakura and her stupid boytoy Syaoran. Damn that gaki! Tomoyo started walking home. By herself. As usual. Dammit, life was harsh. It seemed cruel that the one she desired would fall in love with someone else. Life had too many tricks up its' sleeves, Tomoyo realized. Just when you think that you won at it, it dished out something cruel to choke you with. "TOMOYO-CHAN!" called a lively voice. Oh great, Tomoyo thought. Just who I don't want to see. "WAIT FOR MEEEEEEEE!" Tomoyo turned in Sakura's direction, pasting a smile on her face that she knew Sakura would never take as being fake. 'She's too dense.' "Li-kun and I are going with Eriol, Rika, Naoko, Chiharu, and all of the others to Funtown (A/N I couldn't think of anything!! OK? OK!)! Do you want to come? We'd love to have you with us!" Sakura exclaimed breathlessly. Tomoyo smiled, trying to hide a grimace. 'Do I have a choice? If I say no, you'll question me. Oh well, at least it'll be better than being by myself, moping around an empty house.' "OK," Tomoyo agreed. "What time will you be going?" "Around seven tonight, Tomoyo-chan! It'll be so much fun!" Tomoyo held back a sigh. "OK, see you then." ********* 'God, if I had known that thise damn fools who call themselves my friends were going to leave me with Eriol, I'd have pretended to be sick! He's the only one that can see through my mask!' "Let's go on the ferris wheel, Tomoyo-san," Eriol said calmly. "OK," Tomoyo agreed. 'Maybe the air up there will help me get a grip.' On the ferris wheel, Tomoyo looked over at the city from far above the ground in awe, forgetting about Sakura for a few minutes. Tomoyo sighed audibly, but either Eriol knew better than to ask or just ignored it. She looked down at her hands. 'Damn this! I'm so sick of loving you Sakura! I'm so sick....of not being loved by anyone. Arrrgh, now I'm feeling sorry for myself. I am such a loser. At least Eriol-kun is nice about my stupidity and selfishness.' Eriol pointed suddenly. "Look, Tomoyo-san!" Tomoyo looked in the direction Eriol was pointing to and gasped. Fireworks! Blue, yellow, green, purple - so many colors! So beautiful! "It's beautiful!" Tomoyo breathed in awe. 'I wish I was a firework....I could go out with a bang...and my life wouldn't be so damn long and....lonesome.' "Yes," Eriol said knowingly. "They are." Tomoyo stared at Eriol, then laughed like a crazy baffoon just for the sake of laughing life and it's most terrible moments away. Eriol raised an eyebrow at Tomoyo but said nothing. She continued to laugh insanely for the rest of the ride. ********** 'OK.....how the HELL did I get separated from Eriol-kun, and how the HELL did I end up in the house of MIRRORS?!' Tomoyo thought angrily. 'All these reflections of me...I can't stand it anymore!' "Tomoyo-chan!" Tomoyo turned in what she thought was the direction of the voice and saw that the mirrors were now filled with images of her and Sakura. 'Great, just who I DID NOT WANT TO SEE! Life sucks dammit....why must I run into you at every moment of my life?!' Sakura smiled, but Tomoyo didn't smile back. Tomoyo just stared at Sakura, filled with hate and adoration at the same time. 'Why do I have to love YOU? And you don't even have a clue...' "Tomoyo-chan? Did you get separated from Eriol-kun?" Sakura asked, her voice dripping with sweetness. "Hai," Tomoyo said, forcing the response out through clenched teeth. Sakura giggled. "I got separated from Li-kun! I guess all we have to do now is find the real you and me and get out of here, ne?" Tomoyo forced back a biting reply, and instead said nothing. "Tomoyo-chan? Is something wrong?" Sakura asked. "Yes Sakura-chan! Something is wrong!" Tomoyo replied with a deadly glare. "YOU are!" "Hoe?" came Sakura's refused answer. Tomoyo's blood was boiling. "HOE THIS!!" she shouted, punching what she thought was Sakura, but was actually a mirror. The image split as the impact from Tomoyo's fist caused the mirror to shater into glittering bits of sharp, cutting glass. Blood openly poured from Tomoyo's knuckles, but she paid the wound no heed. Instead, she kept on punching mirros, hoping to hit the real Sakura. Glass got lodged in her fist, ripping her flesh, but Tomoyo didn't even notice. She was blinded by her rage. "DAMN YOU SAKURA!" Tomoyo screamed as she hit yet another mirror, causing it to break into a million pieces. "I hate you!" All of the Sakuras in the mirrors turned sad. "Why?" "Because I love you, but you will never return my feelings! Your brain is so wrapped up with Syaoran you never even notice or spend time with me anymore!" The Sakuras in the mirrors all shook their heads, emerald eyes brimming with tears. "I....I am sorry, Tomoyo-chan! I never even realized...." Tomoyo smirked, hitting another mirror, but with less rage. "You are naive Sakura. You never realize anything without someone walking right up to and saying it. Just how the hell could I tell you with Li- kun going everywhere with you? How could I tell you..." Tomoyo sunk to her knees, on the verge of tears, "when you always wanted to be with him and not me? How could I tell you how I felt when everytime it was supposed to just be you and me, you invited him along.....?" Tomoyo, against her will, started to sob. With blurry vision, she examined her fist, and noticed vaguely that is was filled with glass and bleeding profusely. Her brain registered that she SHOULD be feeling pain right now, but Tomoyo didn't care. She just couldn't believe it. 'I actually told her how I felt, but she didn't care much.' "Tomoyo-chan...." Sakura whispered. "I'm sorry, but I can never love you the way you want me to. But, I love you as a friend. You are my best friend. I do love you in that regard, and I have always hoped that you would find someone and be happy." Tomoyo paused and drew in a shakey breath. "If that is what you want, I will try, Sakura-chan." ********** The tow girls came out of the House of Mirrors, arm in arm. Eriol and Syaoran rushed over. Eriol took silent notice of Tomoyo's bleeding hand, but said nothing. Syaoran, on the other hand, started to bawl with relief at the sight of his girlfriend being OK. "WWWAAAAAAHHHHHHH! Sakura, you're OK!" Syaoran cried, glomping onto his girlfriend. Sakura, Tomoyo, and Eriol sweatdropped. Sakura sighed. "OK, Tomoyo, Eriol, we'll see you later. Have fun!" Sakura dragged Li-kun and herself away. Eriol turned to Tomoyo with a frown. She looked up at him with a blank look, when he grabbed her injured hand rather quickly. She winced as he touched her split flesh gingerly. With a sigh, Eriol took out his hankerchief and gently wrapped it around her wound. She looked up at him, surprised. He was smiling at her, and their faces were only a few inches apart. Tomoyo's heart thumped so loudly in her chest that she thought that Eriol heard it. 'Why am I so embarrassed?!' Tomoyo thought. Eriol just grinned and took her hand, leading her towards a mre secluded area. "Tomoyo-san....there is a girl I love." Eriol whispered. "W-who?" Tomoyo asked, feeling her heart plummet. "Does she love you back?" Eriol shook his head sadly. "She loves someone else. I think that she could love me, but she's so wrapped up in Sakura-san that you don't notice my stares. I love you Tomoyo-chan." Tomoyo gaped at Eriol. Just as Sakura had ignored her, she had ignore Eriol! She was no better. "Oh Eriol, I'm so sorry!" Tomoyo wept. Eriol shrugged, holding Tomoyo and pressing her face into his chest. "I know you are, Tomoyo." Tomoyo looked up at Eriol. She could see the pain and lonliness in his eyes. 'Maybe....we can comfort each other in our lonliness.' Without a second thought, Tomoyo suddenly leaned forward and kissed Eriol sweetly, trying to tell him that she cared. "With time, Eriol- kun, I will learn. But....it won't take that long, because I already love you. I just ignored it, because I was so wrapped up in Sakura. Forgive me?" Eriol, recovering from the kiss, laughed heartily and nodded. Tomoyo leaned forward and kissed him again. He smiled against her mouth, causing Tomoyo to giggle. The two broke apart laughing, and walked hand in hand towards the exit, heading towards the park for a late night stroll together. owari! Notes: Yea, I finished!!! Yea! Valentine, that was for you!! NOW, it yer turn to write ME a fiction based on CCS and Eriol and Tomoyo! Oh c'mon! I KNOW ye can do it! What?! You don't want to?! And....even after <sniff> all that work <sob> I just put into this story for YOU?! Please.....? THANK YOU VALENTINE!!! BWA HA HA! Hey all you bums! I am just beginning to write, now review this story! Tell me what I need to work on! But don't butcher me! Be a NICE person! Thank ya kindly!</pre><p><a href="./">Back</a></p><p><a href=http://www.dreamhost.com/donate.cgi?id=216><img border=0 alt="Donate towards our web hosting bill!" src=https://secure.newdream.net/donate1.gif></a></p></body></html>