http://clampfix.fanworks.net/poetry/someday.txt </head><body><pre>OK... this is my first time hir, so dont kill me. i know that the sub-sei biz is history, but its only now that i got the guts to post this, so tell me if it sux. thanks a lot. Someday i feel numb i can't feel anything neither hate nor loss not happiness or fulfillment... nothing... he is gone now he who should have made my wish come true he who shaped me to who i am now he, the soul I have loved i... i should be the one who died who should be the one lying on the cold ground lifeless, unmoving instead, a sudden twist of fate turned it so i am still here… *i* killed him was the one who took his life was the one who... i want to die here and now i don't care anymore i don't care about the fate of the world i don't care what both of 'them' would think i don't care if i become 'him' i don't care what happens to me i just want to die and be with him without him, i am no one without him, i don't exist i want to be with him i want to exist where he exists i don't want to say goodbye i don't want to leave his side even if it means I'll become him tiny spectacles of water fill my eyes these tears…they're useless these tears are meaningless why... how... could i cry why do i wish for something that can never ever come true how could i wish for something i would not, could not, have i don't know anything anymore my thoughts are driving me crazy i don't know what to believe i don't even know what 'reality or what 'fantasy' is if you were just here if you were here beside me if you were the person you were before any of these happened... then... we could have been happy we could have done so many things together ... i don't want this to... i *never* wanted this to happen what i wanted was far more different from this i wanted to set you free free from yourself free from being a heartless murderer free from feeling nothing at all free from the dark shadows inside you i wanted to do this because i had loved you and i still do, seishirou-san... i still love you......... and someday i'll set you free… i'll learn to let go but not today, someday. ~~~ yea, its mushy. i didnt edit it, and the last part didnt come from me. id really appreciate it if there'd be a lot oc comments to improve my skills.(hehe) thanks again. reia </pre><p><a href="./">Back</a></p><p><a href=http://www.dreamhost.com/donate.cgi?id=216><img border=0 alt="Donate towards our web hosting bill!" src=https://secure.newdream.net/donate1.gif></a></p></body></html>