http://clampfix.fanworks.net/ss-fix/and.txt </head><body><pre>Hello, minna... this is my first time posting here.... and I'll return to my lurker mode now.... ^__^ This is my first attempt at writing a fanfic based on CLAMP's chara. The story is dedicated to all fans of Sumeragi Subaru and Sakurazuka Seishirou. The fic is based on an Indonesian song by an Indonesian group, Sheila On 7, titled Dan... (And...). An MP3 file of the song can be found on http://www.geocities.com/Broadway/Booth/2819/dan.class If you like it, please support the band by buying their album. It's worth it! Disclaimer: Sumeragi Subaru, Sakurazuka Seishirou, Tokyo Babylon, X and all related things are properties of CLAMP. All original things are created and developed by Silver Wind. The song Dan... is written by Eross Sheila and performed by Sheila On 7. Enjoy it! Dan... (And...) by Silver Wind TenohHaruka@sailorsenshi.com ... Ginga ... - http://suiko.net/lain/ Dan... [And...] Dan bila esok, datang kembali [And should tomorrow, ever come again] Seperti sedia kala [Just like the way it used to be] Dimana kau bisa bercanda [When you could joke around] Subaru-kun, what are you doing right now? Are you thinking about me? Or are you drawn into conversation with the Kamui of your side? Subaru-kun, you wouldn't believe me if I tell you that right now I'm seeing your face clearly in my mind. Your too thin body, don't you ever eat, Subaru-kun? Your eyes, beautiful, beautiful emerald eyes... once wide, innocent, expressive... now the empty windows of your soul... Dan... [And...] Perlahan kau pun, lupakan aku mimpi burukmu [Slowly you forget me, your nightmare] Dimana t'lah kutancapkan duri tajam [Where I've put a thorn] Kaupun menangis, menangis sedih [You cry, weeping sadly] Maafkan aku... [Forgive me...] Seishirou-san... are you destroying yet another Kekkai tonight? Is the blood dripping from your gloves? Are you smoking your Mild Seven indifferently with the ruins around you? Seishirou-san, does the thought of me even cross your mind? Even though I know who you are, what you are, I guess I still think of you as the kind vet, the one who always clearly professed your love for me. What a fool I am... you don't have to tell that to me. I know it... but still... Dan... [And...] Bukan maksudku, bukan inginku melukaimu [It's not my intention, it's not my want to hurt you] Sadarkah kau di sini kupun terluka [Realize that I'm also hurting here] Melupakanmu, menepikanmu [Forgetting you, putting you aside] Maafkan aku... [Forgive me...] Subaru-kun, has the light of happiness returned to your eyes? Or are you staring at the night sky right now? Ignoring the whole world, even your Kamui. Are you struggling to forget me, Subaru-kun? Your worst nightmare... wipe me away from your life? Or you just look at my marks on your hand and curse me? You don't know... you don't know that I'm also hurt, do you? I never wanted to hurt you... nor I ever will... it's just something which Has To Be Done. If we became lovers... no, it's unimaginable... this battle is our destiny. The truth is, Subaru-kun, you've won our bet a long time ago... Reff : Lupakanlah saja diriku [Just forget about me] Bila itu bisa membuatmu [If that can make you] Kembali bersinar [Shine again] Dan berpijar seperti dulu kala [And glow like you used to be] I wish I could forget you, Seishirou-san... but then again, I don't think I want to. I don't want to forget you... with Hokuto-chan, you brought happiness into my life. Oh, I know it was all part of the act, but I was happy. I couldn't care less if you only pretended to be the Seishirou that I knew. It hurts, Seishirou-san. I'm still in love with the one who murdered my sister. And you know what hurts most? That I don't think you even care that I still love you. You would probably just smile your usual smile, and say something with your also usual politeness. Caci maki saja diriku [Just scorn and despise me] Bila itu bisa membuatmu [If that can make you] Kembali bersinar [Shine again] Dan berpijar seperti dulu kala [And glow like you used to be] I wonder when we will meet again, Subaru-kun... and then will you try to kill me? Will you try to hurt me? Hate me, Subaru-kun, hate me. It will be easier for both of us to go into that battle. Despise me, Subaru-kun. I deserve your hatred for murdering your sister. You would never understand why. I /have/ to hurt you... I /knew/ about this battle! And I /knew/ whom I would face! You are my light... it's undeniable that we have to fight one another, like your Kamui with my side's [Kamui]. It pains me to see you now, Subaru-kun. Is it right what [Kamui] said that you wanted to lose your right eye like me? He knows what my Wish is too, you know. Do you want to know it, Subaru-kun? Your [Kamui] knew what I wanted, Seishirou-san. I don't regret losing my eye. Although Kamui feels that somehow it's his fault... I would never blame him. I don't blame anyone, not even your [Kamui], Seishirou-san. I wanted it to happen. Seishirou-san, is our bet the only reason you hurting me? Or do you have another reason? Sometimes I feel you're hiding something. What is it, Seishirou-san? What's your Wish, Seishirou-san? To kill me? To finally feed me to your sakura? Subaru-kun, I want you to kill me. No, that is not my true Wish. I want us to kill each other. That way our bet can finally be settled. I want to die in your arms. That is quite a request, don't you think? I don't think you'd still want to hold me. And I want you to die in my arms as well. That's a tough request as well. Do you want me to kill you, Subaru-kun? I don't think so. So hate me, Subaru-kun. That way, we can battle each other without hesitation. And with my last breath, I would finally tell you the truth... I love you, Subaru-kun. I cannot hate you, Seishirou-san. No matter what you did and will do to me, I could never hate you. In fact, I want to die in your embrace... and I want you to die in mine... I will kill you, Seishirou-san. Not for Hokuto-chan, not for the Sumeragi clan, not for the people of the world, not for Kamui. But for me. I would never let you go. As I am your prey, you are my prey as well. And as we die together, I will smile up to you and say the truest thing in my life. Seishirou-san, I love you. Hate me, Subaru-kun. It will be easier. Seishirou-san, I don't want to hate you. THE END Ano... it's very short, don't you think? And, please be gentle to me... this is my first time writing about CLAMP's chara.... Special thanks to Sumeragi Aoi for making me love Subaru too, and to Marissa for defending Sei-chan on WarungManga mailing list... ^__^ Gomen, Aoi-chan and Mercury-chan, for writing this Seishirou-Subaru fic... I know you two don't like them to be together... :p</pre><p><a href="./">Back</a></p><p><a href=http://www.dreamhost.com/donate.cgi?id=216><img border=0 alt="Donate towards our web hosting bill!" src=https://secure.newdream.net/donate1.gif></a></p></body></html>