A long overdue chapter.... I should have sent this on Sunday, but my isp
has been in a a rather chaotic and unstable state since Sunday morning, and
I have to send this from work.
A small note on conventions I've tried to use in this fic regarding
characters' thoughts:
Characters' "direct" thoughts are in the present tense of speech and in the
first persona, regardless of whether the character uses the third persona
when s/he's the narrator. If the character is thinking about words told by
someone else and quoting them, the thoughts will be between "...". If the
thoughts are a means of communication with someone else or what the
character imagines another character would have said, they will be between
<...>. If not, and the character is simply thinking his own thoughts to
himself, then there will be no sign at all (ie: "...and there was nothing
he could do about that. He could only watch while everything fell apart
right before his eyes. You're a wretched idiot, Wesley! The fool clearly
hadn't grasped what was happening. How could anyone be so blind?...")
I hope this makes things clearer. I should have posted the note with the
first chapter, but I forgot. Gomen! ^^;
If anyone is curious to know where I got those weird notions from, it's
simply by being attentive during my summer reading and observing how
published authors go about it (in my case, Robin Hobbs and her Liveships
trilogy).
That said, on with the show! =)
Fuu-chan.
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Bad Blood - Chapter 3.
A Rurouni Kenshin x Tokyo Babylon fanfiction by Ariane Kovacevic, AKA
Fuu-chan.
It was the birds' insistent song which woke Shunsuke. For a moment, he lay
on his futon, eyes fully opened, and wondered whether he ought to get the
pests fried for his breakfast or whether he should have marveled at the
wonderful absence of hangover symptoms in his body. The mornings that
followed an evening and a night spent at the Aoi Kaze-ya were invariably
painful. Piercing headaches would impair his vision, and there would be the
oh-so-pleasant business of heaving out all the food and drinks he had
absorbed.
The Wolf would have been most unhappy with his son.
Eventually, Shunsuke summoned enough energy to stand up, and abruptly the
memories of the previous night rushed back at him.
The gaijin half-blood.
The dangerous unbalance disturbing the aura around the inn.
The stupid fight.
Senseless.
Very clearly, Shunsuke could remember the foreigner's muddy grey eyes
turning toward him and widening in alarm when he had realized that Shunsuke
wouldn't evade the last assault. Scorn and anger had flashed in that weird
alien gaze, and then something else that Shunsuke hadn't understood. All of
a sudden, the gaijin had thrown himself at the Sumeragi's heir and used his
own body to shield him. By the bewildered look in the pale eyes, Shunsuke
had known that the other had been as surprised as he by that instinctive
reaction. He hadn't been able to explain it, but the few words he had
eventually offered had been enough. That small glimpse into the stranger's
heart had made Shunsuke's decision for him.
He had thought he would have to either knock the gaijin out or to bespell
him to get him to behave and follow him, but the young man had frozen when
Shunsuke had allowed his anger to show.
When he had revealed himself.
It hadn't been a well-thought out action. The Shadow within had risen as
it sometimes did, and Shunsuke hadn't fought it. With a faint smile, he
thought to himself that it shouldn't have surprised him so that the gaijin
had stopped in his tracks and bowed to him, at last allowing himself to be
led away from the veiled, enticing lights of Gion. Turning toward the
sliding panel on his left, Shunsuke focused his mind and heaved out a
relieved sigh. The wards he had set around the neighboring room were
undisturbed.
At rest.
Well, that was something at least. With the quick, sure movements that
bespoke a long habit, Shunsuke folded his futon and his blankets before
storing everything away and out of sight. If he didn't do it, Hiroko would,
and he didn't want to be served like that. He didn't want Hiroko to wait on
him. She was Shunsuke's mother's--the clan head's--not his. Turning toward
the terrace, he opened the panel and stepped beyond the room's threshold.
Brilliant sunlight flooded Shunsuke's vision and he grimaced, raising a
hand to his brow to shield his eyes. As he walked out to the main terrace,
he watched his breath come out in small puffs of smoke, and smiled. It
looked like this was going to be a splendid late autumn day.
The panel of the room to his left had been opened, which meant that his
guest had either awakened or been sick during the night. Somehow, the
second alternative seemed more pleasant than the first. That might have
taught the fool a useful lesson. One had to be cautious and tread carefully
around alcohol when one was born with a sense of the spiritual. Talent,
small and insignificant though it might be, must be harnessed and mastered.
A good mental balance was of paramount importance for, when one indulged in
a bit too much sake, restraints failed. Control lessened, emotions spilled
out and caused shifts in the spiritual currents that shaped the
world--shaped cities and forests, mountains and lakes, oceans, as much as
stone, water and wood did. People never realized this, and in truth it
didn't matter, except when someone with talent flooded a place with the
wild, untamed power that always followed in the wake of strong emotions and
*pushed*--pushed until there was a rupture in the flow of spiritual energy,
and balances broke.
And what that stupid gaijin had done-- With a brisk move of his right
hand, Shunsuke sent the bothersome subject away from his thoughts and
stepped to the edge of the terrace. It would be dealt with in due time. He
could hardly be rude enough to step into his guest's room uninvited when he
knew he had the situation under control. Even should his own seals fail,
the myriad of wards shielding the Sumeragi mansion, each stronger than the
former, ensured that nothing could happen--except perhaps alarming some of
the family members currently residing in the house. That might even be fun.
Ah, Hiroko had remembered not to move his geta from their spot next to the
pillar. Good. Quickly, he put them on and then left the terrace to take a
walk in the huge inner garden. Ignoring the koi in the nearby pond, he went
over to the closest grove of trees and reached out to the nearest trunk.
Its fabric was hard and smooth, cool to the touch. In a slow motion,
Shunsuke titled his head backward and looked up at the canopy of leaves and
branches. Even the maples would soon lose their whole foliage, then winter
would truly be there. In the meantime, they would offer this beautiful
vision of a sea of flames. Bright orange, golden and crimson red, the
myriad of leaves swayed gently with the eastern breeze, drawing strange,
hypnotic patterns in the air. Focusing on the feeling of the ground beneath
his feet and on the wind's soft caress on his face, Shunsuke closed his
eyes and opened his senses to the life pulsing around him.
Echoes of human voices in the distance.
Windsong in the fragile sakaki branches next to the shrine on the other
side of the garden.
Swift, powerful clouds swirling, unfurling above the mountains in the
north-east.
Scent of the ocean seeping into the air, almost too faint to be perceived.
Clack of the water, very close, as a koi jumped in the air to remind the
household it was hungry.
Fat, lazy koi which lied without shame, its stomach filled to contentment.
Ruffle of fabric behind Shunsuke, coming from a place where there usually
wasn't anything but silence.
Shuffle of feet in the southern wing, where cousins were getting ready to
leave for Ise.
Quiet flow of power surrounding the mansion, binding earth and sky together.
Presence.
Presence, brushed by small tendrils of power.
Cold.
Quietness.
Shunsuke reluctantly opened his eyes and turned away from the maple tree.
As he had known he had, his guest had come to the edge of the terrace and
was watching him.
Strangely enough, the gaijin had barely disturbed the wards set around his
room when he had left it. It looked like he had stopped broadcasting the
dark turmoil of his emotions everywhere. The house's seals had reacted to
him, but he hadn't triggered any alarm. Instead, the binding of spiritual
energy had tentatively encircled him. It had recoiled as it had touched
him, and finally it had enveloped him just like it did every living being
under its protection.
Accepting him.
The young man didn't seem to have perceived any of it, which told Shunsuke
his insane impulse of the last night had been correct: he had been right to
bring him here. A stumbling child, blind to the dangers he might raise in
his steps, the stranger needed watching.
There was a weak throbbing pain in my brown when I opened my eyes. I
closed them again immediately, hurt by the angry glare of the sun, and
somehow I managed not to moan my discomfort. I had been sick during the
night and, while I had retained enough strength and dignity to drag myself
outside to retch the contents of my stomach, I hadn't had the brains to
remember to close the panel afterward.
Stupid idiot.
I laid back against the futon, and wondered why this particular hangover
was so bad. I knew I hadn't had enough time to drink that much and, while
of poor quality, the sake hadn't been stale enough to cause sickness. As I
shifted on the futon, rolling over to rest my left cheek against the
pillow, I suddenly realized that the fabric of the sheet I was lying upon
was too soft--too rich for the cheap inn in which I had taken up residence.
Then I remembered the night's events and the flask striking my skull. That
was the source of the pain, not the alcohol in my veins. The tall, nameless
young man had dragged me along with him toward what was most likely his
house. There had been something eerie and frightening in the anger he had
directed toward me--something that had sent cold shivers running down my
spine. I hadn't understood a word he had said, except when he had told me
it was all my fault, but I had known he was telling me the truth. There had
been no gainsaying him when he had stared at me with eyes that had shifted
color completely.
Green.
The deep emerald that only westerners' eyes could be.
The pure green that only the members of Erin's oldest clans sometimes
retained.
Who was that man?
Eventually, I had found the courage to open my eyes once again and to
stand up. I hadn't undressed to sleep and nobody had bothered to do it for
me. I shivered, aware that I had been more lucky than I deserved. I needed
to use care and caution when dealing with people. I couldn't let myself be
handled like a bag of goods. I just couldn't trust people like that. Shit,
I hadn't even trusted my own sister this far! Angry at myself, I quickly
smoothed out my hakama an my kimono, making sure it was closed completely,
then I stepped outside of the spacious room I had been given.
For the time of a heartbeat, I froze on the threshold, blinking. Just now,
I had almost felt like I had stepped through an ethereal curtain of water.
The sensation faded as swiftly as it had come, though, and I walked on the
terrace, focusing on my balance and finding myself to be still a bit
light-headed. That blow had been a bad one, worse than I had first thought.
On impulse I reached up, and my fingers touched a bandage on my left temple
that I didn't remember doing myself. A furious hiss escaped me, and I gave
a brisk shake of the head. That was a mistake, as the pain in my skull
proceeded to remind me in full glorious details. I allowed myself a few
seconds to bring it under control, then I resumed my walk.
Resting my right hand against one of the pillars supporting the roof, I
looked out at the garden spreading before me and felt my eyes widen in awe.
It was beautiful, even more so than the Asano mansion's had been. In
silence, I stared at the riot of bright, fiery autumn colors and abruptly,
I noticed someone standing next to a maple tree.
The motionless figure could have been mistaken for a statue. He stood
still, absolutely so, as if the life had gone out of him. As I focused on
him, I recognized my host's silhouette, and got the sudden, odd sensation
that he was one with the garden, as if he had fused with the maple tree he
had leant a hand against. It wasn't that he was lifeless, I realized then.
He was in complete harmony with everything surrounding him--at one with
every single element of the garden. How anyone could attain such a perfect
state of concentration without going through endless hours of preparation
and meditation, I had no idea. I had watched Kaoru-sensei go through mental
exercises to train her focus, and I had observed some of my uncles and
cousins doing the same. It was nowhere near as easy as leaning against a
tree and closing one's eyes.
A gentle breeze rose around me, and in the same time the man pushed away
from the maple's trunk and pivoted toward me. As I fought not to smile at
the sight of the long, unruly bangs of black hair invading his face, the
air around me rippled.
Water.
Time stood still while something cold and yet not unpleasant brushed
against my skin. There wasn't anything in the air to touch or reach out to,
but I felt it nonetheless as it drew back from me.
Puzzled cat.
I held very still, wondering at the absence of fear or questions inside
me, and then it closed around me.
A cloak of wind.
A mantle of ethereal raindrops.
In front of me, my host's eyes had widened in surprise.
Eventually, the moment passed, and whoever had locked Time away released
it. The young man came toward me and stepped on the terrace, leaving his
geta next to one of the pillars. As he gave me a slight bow, I noted a
detail I had missed in the dim lights of the inn: his eyes weren't pure
amber, there were patches of green in them. So, maybe it could explain what
I had seen. With the daze consecutive to the blow I had taken, it was
likely my mind had drifted away and been deceived by an illusion. Relief
came with the thought, without my knowing why.
"Good morning. You look far better than you did yesterday."
His voice was deep and pleasant. I bowed back at him. "Yes, I've been able
to get a good rest thanks to your hospitality."
He grinned at that, and waved my words aside. "That's because you didn't
have enough time to drink too much, not because of the room I dumped you
into." Then, sobering, he asked softly, "Your name?"
"Bran," I told him with my best guileless smile, but he simply stood in
front of me, waiting--waiting for my name when he should have first offered
me his. It wasn't proper, I had learnt this from my mother's clan at least.
What was more, names in this country told much more than westerners were
aware of.
Names revealed the strongest branch of one's family.
Names revealed which way hearts and loyalty would go.
Names were power.
But then this didn't exactly apply to me--or, to be honest, it applied but
only as I saw fit. Taking a quick glance at the garden and the big,
luxurious and ancient-looking mansion behind him, I decided to tell him the
truth as he would have heard it from informants, had he had the means or
the wish to use them. "Asano Bran," I said, my eyes locked on his.
"Asano," he murmured pensively. "Strange," he shrugged, "there hasn't been
anyone born with a strong talent in that clan for centuries."
Talent?
Now what was this about?
"Never mind." He sighed. "At least you're no longer a walking disaster
this morning." His eyes searched my face for a few seconds, then he said,
"It's weird, but I suppose the sake triggered it and mulled the strength of
your walls."
I blinked, taken aback by the more than strange turn this conversation was
taking. Then, the words registered in my brain, and anger surged in their
wake. Who did he think he was, to lecture me as if I had been a child? I
interrupted him with a sneer. "And might one inquire as to the identity of
the person so generously sharing his wisdom on the ravages caused by
alcohol with a perfect stranger?"
He froze at that, surprise flashing in the amber eyes as if the question
was ridiculous, its answer obvious. "I'm Sumeragi Shunsuke," he said at last.
I had to laugh.
Life's chances were too funny. Either that, or the universe had a twisted
sense of humor. "I'm sorry," I told him once I managed to control the
reaction. He didn't say anything. Puzzlement was plain on his face, but he
seemed to accept my laughter as gaijin weirdness. It didn't look like he
had taken offense.
"The Asano clan has a house in Tokyo, but no residence here, and no
interests either," he said in a quiet voice. It was a statement, not a
question, and yet it was rude to intrude into private matters in such an
obvious fashion--unless the speaker happened to be of a much higher status
than the one he was talking to.
Which was of course the case here.
"My father is one of the work site's chief engineers, and he needed me to
come work with him. The Asano clan wisely decided to let me go, thus
ridding themselves of a stain on their honor." I allowed a pleasant smile
to curl up my lips while I was saying this, and I had the surprise of
seeing him bow.
"I poured salt on old wounds. Forgive me, I had no wish to rekindle the
pain." He heaved out a small sigh. The amber eyes were set one me once
more, true, and I found myself unable to deny his words. "Sit with me," he
bade me, and proceeded to sit cross-legged on the terrace's wood. I
imitated him, not knowing what else to do. It was an opportunity too good
to let pass. "Do you have a place to stay? With your father, perhaps?"
I shrugged. "No, we're not close, he and I. But I do have a room in one of
Gion's inns. It's not luxury, but it's good enough for me."
"I'm afraid it's not," he countered softly. "You can't roam Gion as you
are," he went on, his gaze set over the garden. Distant. "You're a magnet
for trouble. Even though you now seem to be in perfect control, I shudder
to think about what would happen, should you decide to get drunk again with
your emotions in turmoil."
"I'm not some drunkard in search of an excuse to start a brawl!"
"No." All of a sudden he focused on me. "No, you're not. You're one of the
very rare people who send ripples through wards and shields when you walk
past them, one of the very few who can shift the aura around places if you
don't keep a tight rein on the power streaming through you." Abruptly, I
wanted to look away. I couldn't understand those words, they had no meaning
to me--no meaning but an echo that resounded within and grew.
Laughter, cold and harsh.
Flames in a centuries-old hearth of stones.
Fire and Shadows dancing.
Telling a tale so terrible it could only be a nightmare.
A legend so harsh and sad that it could only be the truth.
"You're a beacon", he told me, the tone of his voice gentle, as if he was
aware of the nameless fear he had sparked to life in my heart. "You disturb
the lines of power like a stone thrown in a pond of still waters. I'm sure
it's almost never gotten you into trouble, but it's there. And when your
mind drowns in chaos and your defenses are weakened, you're like a growing
wind, stirring the clear waters and raising dangerous undercurrents without
ever realizing it."
"I don't understand any of this," I whispered, managing at last to bow my
head and tear my gaze away from his.
He was dangerous.
He was nothing like the reports had told me.
The arrogant first-born and only son of the Sumeragi clan head, who was so
spoiled he spent his time revolting against his family, shying away from
his duties.
A brat who had too much of a taste for whores and sake.
No, he was nothing like that.
He saw clear and true.
And he was a dire threat.
"You lie." I tensed as the flat pronouncement reached my ears, but he
continued quietly, "You're half-Japanese, and you spent time with your
mother's kin, I can see it in the way you hold yourself and talk. You know
about the kami and the spirits who share the world with us, hovering
between one reality and the next. If anything, your clan will have told you
this about the land whose life flows in your veins."
I looked at him, unable to help myself, compelled by the truth underlying
his words. He smiled as our eyes met, a kind, encouraging smile. "I could
of course let you go. It's likely you'd just get yourself beaten up or
killed, and the risk that you'd damage the city's seals would be a minor
one. But," he grinned at me, "I'd hate to have to mend them, it might give
my worthless family the wrong idea."
"And what do you propose, then?" I found myself asking.
"I'd advise you to go back to Tokyo, because it's obvious that someone or
something badly affected you here, leading to the near-disaster at the Aoi
Kaze-ya--and because it seems likely that that won't follow you back to the
Asano household." He shrugged, and waved his own words away in a fatalistic
gesture, "But anyway, since it's certainly out of the question, just stay
here. This wing of the mansion is deserted, and I won't tolerate any of my
cousins settling in it. I'm the only one who lives in it, and Hiroko is the
only other soul who dares set foot in it without my express invitation.
During the day, you're no danger by yourself, and if you feel like drinking
at night, I can set wards around you. I can even drink with you if I'm of a
mind to...and if you're in the mood, I can ask girls from the Aoi Kaze-ya
to come over. The spirits know my mother would frown on that, but if it's
to preserve the city's balance, she'd go along with it." That last bit was
said with a very wide grin and a glint of mischief in those amber eyes of his.
No.
He was sincere, I knew it--just as I knew how dangerous staying here would
be.
I couldn't risk that.
Slowly, I started pushing myself up while replying, "I'm a perfect
stranger to you, and what's more a bastard who'd bring unwanted attention
your way. Thank you, but I cannot accept--"
"You must." He had laid a hand on my shoulder, blocking my movement and
forbidding me to stand up.
"And what makes you think you could prevent another disaster like last
night's?" I asked him, desperately seeking the argument that would convince
him to let me go. "This may be an old, famous mansion and not an inn in
Gion, but still I am what I am. Nothing can change that."
He stared at me quizzically, and then laughed. "I'm the Sumeragi's heir,
isn't that enough for you?" When he saw that I didn't understand, he added
with a smile, "The Sumeragi clan has been the guardian of Japan's spiritual
balance since the dawn of time. We hold our duty from the hands of the
first emperor himself. We bind Earth, Sky and Spirit together," he said
softly. "We are the anchors of the world, Asano Bran. Trust me."
Trust me.
The two words echoed within and I closed my eyes tightly shut. Teeth
clenched, I willed the painful sounds to be still and fade into nothingness
as they must.
As everything must.
"I can't," I began.
"I brought you to my house and set you down on a bed in a room next to
mine because I stole a glimpse of your heart."
A glimpse of my heart.
Oh gods.
No.
I had to leave--to get away before it was too late. Never mind my father's
mission. There were other ways, but this--this....
"It's a fine spirit you have, but it's drowning in a flood of emotions so
dark that they've poisoned it. I've seen the black pain and the fury that
wait in the shadows of your soul and choke you whenever your control
falters--whenever you're so tired that you just want to let go of
everything and forget even your name."
Again, I tried to stand up and flee the harsh truth that was being handed
to me. I fought against the pressure of the hand pushing me down, but its
fingers squeezed my shoulder.
Strong.
Gentle.
"I brought you to this house so that you could rest. What I saw in you is
utter exhaustion, Asano-san. I don't know what stalks you, but I know what
damages it causes. You need a peace only this house can give you, because
the exhaustion I feel in you isn't of the body, it's of the spirit." Once
more, I found myself looking at him.
Eyes of pure emerald were gazing at me.
Knowing.
Something cold crept and crawled within me, coiling up around my spine and
I shook under Sumeragi Shunsuke's fingers.
Cold.
Cold, the bracelets on my left wrist and the ring on my middle finger.
Cold, the ancient, finely wrought silver.
So cold.
Real.
The only thing that had substance in the world.
Unchanging.
Eternal.
"Stay," he asked, the tone of his voice soft, little more than a whisper,
breaking the spell.
No choice.
None.
The fear the clarity of his perceptions had given rise to inside me didn't
matter. My insane wish to flee from this house didn't matter. Senseless
impulse. I should have known better than to listen to it, even if I had
done so only for a fraction of a second.
"Stay," he repeated, and because he asked, I wished with all my heart I
could go away and renounce my father's name.
But it was too late for that.
There was only one thing to do, I could see my path as clearly as the Big
Dipper in the night, but because he had asked, and because those strange
eyes were set on me without even a trace of scorn or disgust, I told him
quietly, "I will, if such is your wish, but it's a mistake you'll come to
regret. Just like you said, I am a wild wind let loose. I harm all those
who stay too close. All of them."
The eerie green eyes didn't waver. He gave me a single, calm nod, and then
he released me. "I'll be the judge of that," he told me with a smile, and I
looked away from him.
Yes, it was likely he would be.
And he'd find that what I had told him was true.
I knew the truth of myself.
The truth of my name.
The silver wound against my skin was cold.
A searing wound--a brand which marked a clan generation after generation.
It was a sign, it warned away to those who knew its meaning. But nobody
knew--nobody remembered, except us.
Deception.
Betrayal.
I bowed my head, and tried to ignore the sour taste in my mouth that felt
too much like tears.
"Here. Looks like this one's for you."
I raised an eyebrow in surprise, then took the letter held out to me and
whistled softly between my teeth when I saw the seal on the paper. "It's
from Yuta," I said, incredulity plain in the tone of my voice. "How could
this reach us?"
"It came from Cho. Your brother used him as a go-between, trusting he'd
find a way to contact me. It would seem he developed brains over the years.
I'm amazed," the man at my side sniggered.
"Hajime!" I shook my head ad heaved out a sigh, aware that rebuking my
husband was useless. Smiling despite myself, I added, "Yuta's brains have
always been fine, thank you. They need to be, when dealing with the
imperial palace's officials. I'd bet," I told him with a sudden grin, "that
he could beat you at shougi."
A derisive snort was the only answer I got, and I laughed softly to myself
when I saw the look of haughty disdain in the amber eyes. There was the
faintest trace of annoyance there, as well as in the harsh, angular lines
of Saitou Hajime's face--annoyance because both he and I knew full well
that I had told him the pure and simple truth, but he'd never admit that.
Not even if his life was threatened. The Wolf of Mibu had a pride of his
own, and it wasn't a small one.
"So, what is it that moved your good-for-nothing brother to turn his gaze
our way and to get a hold of us?"
Instinctively, I clenched my teeth as I tore the envelope open. Despite
the harsh words, there had been no mockery in my husband's voice when he
had asked the question--no irony, but deadly earnest, for it could only
mean that something of importance, something bad had happened for Yuta to
turn to me.
Something that threatened the clan.
Something that threatened Shunsuke.
When I had left my family a little bit more than four years ago, my
brother had understood the reasons, and he had respected my decision. I
hadn't heard from him or anybody else since then. He hadn't tried to find
us, and until now I had been convinced he never would--sad and proud though
that certainty had made me. Yuta was my brother, and like me he was the son
of Sumeragi Ryûnosuke.
And I missed him.
I missed the perfumes of the Kyoto mansion's gardens in Spring.
I missed the sound of Hiroko's voice.
I missed the tentative touch of my son's spirit when he reached out to me
during his dream-walking escapades.
It was he who must have been hurt the most by my abrupt decision of
abandoning the clan. The only thing I had been able to leave for him had
been a letter--words written down on paper, much too quickly.
Words, that could never hope to convey the emotions in my heart.
There had been no time to waste. My baring the Sakurazukamori's spirit,
and touching the ancient Sakura itself, had doomed me to choose this path
if I wanted to preserve my clan and the balance between us and the master
assassin. Nothing else mattered--nothing else could matter.
"You have to read it, Tokio." As the whisper reached my ears, hands gently
pressed on my shoulders and I nodded in silence, willing my heart to
steady. It was thanks to him, thanks to the Wolf at my side that I had been
able to keep my head up and endure my self-imposed exile--that I had found
the strength and the will to thwart the Sakurazukamori's every attempt on
our lives.
The Sakurazukamori, Sakurazuka Keiko. The little girl who had been hurt
and abused so horribly--the little girl who had sought refuge with the
ancient tree that was her family's doom and blessing, the little girl whose
wounds I had unwittingly reopened, whose memory and sanity I had forced
back on her. She had cried out, then.
The young, proud woman she had become had screamed in anguish and despair,
and when she had lifted up her head, glinting hatred had pushed pain and
grief aside. There was a feud between us, one I had no wish and no taste
for, but I couldn't deny it. I couldn't step aside from what I had done to
her. She thirsted after revenge, and it was her right.
Even though neither she nor I could ever take the other's life.
We were bound, I by a Shadow's ethereal memories and she by the haunting
song in the great Sakura's branches.
I folded the letter with slow deliberation, and gently freed myself from
my husband's embrace. Stepping toward the small room's low table, I set the
paper down and straightened, listening to the wind outside. It had risen in
furious gusts with the dawn, and since then it had kept tearing at the old
house's fragile structure. Hajime and I had put new stones upon the roof to
steady it, but as I focused on the storm's angry howls, I distantly
wondered if it would be enough. Eventually, I freed myself from the
perception of the swiftly coming winter's violent movements, and turned
around.
"We must go back," I said simply, my eyes set on Hajime's.
"The Sakurazukamori's threat?" he asked in a quiet voice. The question
could have meant many things, but I knew what it was he asked.
A sad, weary smile crept up my lips. "We'll have to chance it." Gesturing
toward the discarded letter on the table, I went on, "For some unknown
reason, circles close to the emperor have seen fit to remember the
existence of the Sumeragi clan, and they've been requesting an interview
with the clan head for months. Yuta has evaded them for as long as he
could, because he didn't want to involve Shunsuke in such matters before he
has officially come into his birthright." I let out a small sigh. "But
things have moved, taking on a sudden urgency and stalling has become
impossible. He'd send Shunsuke," despite the gravity of the situation, I
felt laughter bubbling up inside as I said, "but our son has shut himself
away from the clan. He has withdrawn to an abandoned wing of the Kyoto
mansion and he won't talk to anyone--be it Yuta or the elders. He's grown
wild and out of control. It seems the only things that interest him now are
Gion's inns, their sake and their women.
"Yuta is indeed a fool if he believes that," Hajime snorted. "Your son may
be a willful brat who has been spoiled by his mother, but there's much more
to him than this."
"I know," I replied softly as I bowed my head. "I remember." Chasing the
memories away with an effort of will, I looked up at the Wolf of Mibu once
again and told him, "Shunsuke is our son, and we both know his heart. He
understands the balance that must be kept, but I fear he cares nothing for
the clan itself or for the mundane duties that come with our name." With a
shake of my head, I added, "Even though I understand why he rejects them,
even though I'd have done the same in his place, I must go and answer my
brother's plea for help."
"Why?"
I stared long at the amber eyes of the Wolf, sustaining the hard light in
his gaze. Here was another who hadn't forgiven Yuta--who hadn't forgiven
the Sumeragi for not standing by me. He had judged, like Shunsuke had, and
once that was done there was no going back.
No forgiving.
That terrible harshness was in both father and son, they were much more
alike than they knew. Slowly, I reached out to my husband and brushed the
fingertips of my right hand against his cheek. "Because I am older than
Shunsuke is, and because the years have taught me that choices and
decisions, loyalties and betrayal are not as easy and obvious as they can
seem to be. Because I am a Sumeragi--the Sumeragi, still--and because I
love them despite everything," I said with a quiet smile. There were still
doubts in Hajime's eyes, and I pivoted on my heels, facing again the cursed
letter on the table.
White stain in the semi-darkness of our small house on the outskirts of
Hakodate.
It was strange, I was both happy and devastated at the dire news. I
couldn't shake off the surge of joy in my heart at the thought of seeing
the inner garden again--of laying eyes on Shunsuke again, when I had
thought us parted for good. But all this could in no way eclipse the danger
of the situation the whole clan had suddenly found itself trapped into. "If
Yuta doesn't answer the palace officials' request--and he won't--they'll
take the stakes higher. It's like a game, like go or shougi, but here...."
I let my voice trail off into silence, and then voiced the truth that my
brother knew but hadn't dared write in his letter.
"By winter's end at latest, a summons will come from the emperor himself.
I must answer it if Shunsuke won't, because if I fail to, the Sumeragi name
will be wiped out of existence. It's part of the duty we've kept since the
beginning of Japan," I continued with cold certainty. "We exist because of
the emperor's will, and when a summons come we must answer. There is no
other choice. There may only have been less than five in our recorded
family archives, but still," I shrugged, "it changes nothing. I don't know
why, but someone in the imperial palace has remembered our name. I can't
guess what help we can be in these modern times, but it doesn't matter.
Perhaps it's my fault," I said, allowing bitterness to seep into my voice,
"perhaps I brought attention on the clan when I helped you, Himura-san and
Shinomori-san to silence that faction in power that was pulling Japan
toward war."
Perhaps the whole affair that had led to my breaking the centuries-old
balance between my clan and the Sakurazukamori had been one huge, foolish
mistake. I didn't know anymore.
"Everything is clear, then." Dimly, I heard the sound of Hajime's steps as
he came at my side. Abruptly, arms wrapped around me and brought me against
him. "The past is the past. Stop brooding about what you can't change,
stupid woman!" I turned my head to the left and sighed into his shoulder.
"We're almost at the end of autumn, the typhoon season is over. The
maritime routes should be safe enough. We'll catch a boat and we'll be back
to Kyoto in time. Then you can reason with Shunsuke and settle this mess."
He ran a hand through my hair in a gentle caress. "Don't dwell on the past,
Tokio," he said quietly, "look forward and act where you can. That's the
only thing anyone can and must do."
He was right.
I knew he was.
With a small nod, I sent doubts and misgivings away, then I looked up at
the cruel Wolf of Mibu--I looked up at the man I loved with all my heart,
and told him with my best attempt at a meek and proper female behavior, "If
my husband says so."
For the time of a heartbeat, his eyes widened, and then he laughed. "And I
say so!" he growled with feigned severity. Bending over me, he nuzzled at
my neck, whispering almost inaudibly, "Fool, stupid, beloved fool." I held
him tight, relishing the gentle, tender touch of his lips, and all of a
sudden I threw boring propriety aside. Laying the palms of my hands against
his cheeks, I made him look at me and kissed him, telling Time to stop for
a while. The preparations for the journey would wait for an hour or two.
Right now Hajime and I had far better things to do.
The night is cold.
Even though winter hasn't come yet, a harsh, icy wind sweeps down the many
streets of Tokyo, flowing along the Edo-gawa, the Harakawa and the
Tama-gawa like a wild torrent fed by an early spring thaw. It comes down
from the nearby mountains and cares nothing that the inhabitants shiver and
hide themselves within walls to avoid it. It laughs at the pitiful human
attempts to bar its way. It only needs to will it for the roofs to be swept
away, leaving the houses' tenants naked and defenseless. The woman smiles
secretly to herself as she tastes these thoughts and the truth they hold.
They're close kin, the savage wind and her, except that she's more patient.
More cunning.
She pauses briefly before one of the small houses at the outskirts of the
newly developed borough around what was once Edo-jo, the Tokugawa shoguns'
proud fortress. Fondness, unbidden, comes into her smile as her gaze
studies the simple architecture. The rather small building has nowhere near
the noble, ancient magnificence of the Sumeragi mansion in Kyoto. This city
doesn't know the Sumeragi, and the Sumeragi don't know it. The
centuries-old clan hasn't roamed its streets or seen to its seals and wards
during countless years. Try though she may, the woman cannot feel the
telltale touch of their spells in the air, even when she stretches herself
as far as would be prudent. Tokyo's aura is wild and untamed, but it has
never worried the righteous Sumeragi clan.
Kyoto.
They've only cared about that one city, and now that the young emperor has
moved his capital to what was once Edo, they find themselves abruptly
thrown in murky waters. It's only here, in the area around that small
house, that the Sumeragi's hand can be felt, albeit faintly. Things would
be different if the clan head was here and chose to stay. It would all be
different if the Sumeragi was here to tend to matters that need--no,
demand--her presence, but Sumeragi Tokio has fled to Hokkaido, a prey to
the hunter's wrath. To the hunter's vengeance.
Her vengeance.
She has relaxed her hold on her enemy lately, but it in no way means that
she has forgotten or forgiven. With a soft smile, the woman looks up at a
window on the first floor, but there is no light there. He's been gone for
hours, summoned to the imperial palace, she knows. It's likely it will take
him most of the night to win free of the old palace officials' snares. It
will take him time, but he'll manage, she's confident of that. Sumeragi
Yuta is anything but a fool. He'll hold the old sharks at bay for a while
still, which suits her fine. She's in no hurry--she holds all the keys she
needs. She had her vengeance secured, even though Sumeragi Tokio doesn't
know it yet.
But she will, in time.
When she freed her foes from her claws, she excluded Sumeragi Tokio. The
clan head's kin would normally be safe from her, but Yuta came to her of
his own will. He came, and chose to stay.
Chose to give.
Chose to receive.
Chose to love.
That he placed himself into her hands as a tool to be used is none of her
doing, and she will use him. Slowly, she closes her eyes and summons to her
mind the feeling and scent of him. Yes, she will use him. With a small nod
to herself, she turns aside from the house that is the only residence the
Sumeragi have cared to have in Tokyo until now, and goes on her way. The
night is still young, and she has errands of her own to run.
It only takes her half an hour to reach her destination: one of the
richest houses close to the harbor. Looking critically at the wall
protecting the access to the inner garden, she wonders of the estate's
owner really believe it's enough to keep burglars at bay. The faint echoes
of voices nearby almost make her curse aloud, but instinct takes over and
she focuses the tiniest fraction of her awareness to shift the world's
shape around her. The illusion she weaves in a split second is one of peace
and tranquillity. Nothing has come to disturb the area, except the wind and
the sound of the waves. A still figure standing in the shadow of the
garden's wall, she watches as four men in uniform walk past her and then
disappear in the next street.
Police patrols.
Times have changed since the chaos at the end of the Bakumatsu. This time,
the people in power are cautious and want to ensure a certain stability--or
at least it looks like they do. The invitation she has received seems to
indicate that what was thought to be obvious until now might not be so. She
has come half out of curiosity, half out of respect for the name written
down on the note handed to her by a servant in one of her contact places.
Carefully, she unravels the strands of her illusion and steps away from the
wall. There wasn't even a true need for that small trick. Clad as she is in
men's trousers and jacket, her hair tightly bound in a thick pony tail, she
would be mistaken for a sailor who wandered and lost his way between one
tavern and the next. Oh, she's a fine sight. Idly, she wonders if Yuta
would recognize her. Then, focusing her mind on what she's come here to do,
she turns toward the small, unimpressive wall, jumps and lightly vaults
over it.
The garden smells of newly moved earth. Looking around, the woman notices
bushes that have obviously been replanted recently. It looks like someone
in the house enjoys gardening. Distantly, she notes all the little details
and files them away for possible further use. It's instinct, and it can't
hurt. Turning from the garden's enticing but distracting spectacle, she
quietly steps toward the house and the terrace that someone has lit.
She's expected.
Well, not exactly she. It's well known that she never comes herself. Out
of habit, she stretches herself a little bit, extending her wards and
feeling for danger. There are no spells around the house, no Onmyouji has
ever touched its aura, which isn't exactly a surprise. There's no spiritual
shield here, but there is someone waiting in the shadows cast by the roof,
hidden from the light of the small lantern.
So.
As she reaches the terrace's edge, she takes off her simple geta, as if
she was a normal house guest, and then she steps up on the polished wood
floor. Pivoting to her left, she gives a slight bow and waits.
"Be welcome to this place," the voice is deep and quiet,
"Sakurazukamori-san." There isn't even a trace of fear in the words, which
comes as a refreshing surprise. How the man knows who it is who stepped
into his house is another matter. As he comes toward her, the lantern's dim
light reveals a man in his late forties, clad in a rich and traditional
kimono. The master of this house, and the one who asked for her. This
explains it. The man is Satsuma, and even though his brother died a rebel,
he's made a name for himself and he's gathered power into his hands. He
doesn't know her, but he knows the feeling of a hunter, this one. He knows
how the air ripples and parts for the master assassin.
"What can I do for you, Saigô-sama?" she asks softly in the night. She has
no time for idle talking and politeness, not now. She has come because she
sees a pattern in the movements of servants around the imperial palace and
in the repeated visits of Yuta to Edo-jo. Already, she has heard the
request of another great name among the Oligarchs, but she hasn't given her
answer yet. She'll wait until she has enough to satisfy her. She's the
Sakurazukamori, and as such, she has a place in the order of things.
A very precise place at the center of a maze of contradictions.
"When winter ends, a decision must be made. In appearance, a small,
obvious decision to honor a treaty signed almost ten years ago, but on that
small decision will hang the future of this country. What we will become
will be sealed then." The man's dark eyes are set on her, steady. His voice
is calm, but she can feel the tension disturbing the air as he speaks. "The
westerners have sent envoys to push the decision in a way that suits them.
The emperor's advisors know this, just as they know that some of the
Oligarchs requested the westerners to step in and shift the balance from
the shadows. They have remembered an old name, the name of a clan that has
been used to guard the balance of the land for countless generations. In
their fear of seeing the Oligarchs seize even more power, they've decided
to involve the Sumeragi."
There, another strand tied into the tapestry.
It's an intricate design, this one. An interesting one. "The Sumeragi are
beyond me, Saigô-sama," she interrupts the man softly. "I won't step into
their domain or break the pattern that they weave."
"I'm not asking for lives," he waves her quiet protestation aside. "Until
now the Sumeragi have refused to grant the advisors' wishes, but they are
advisors themselves, appointed by law as old as this country. When the
emperor requests the clan head's presence, they must comply, and they will."
The clan head, summoned to Tokyo.
If she were to come here, where her hands have never touched a seal or
strengthened a ward--in this place that doesn't know the Sumeragi's hand
and wouldn't respond to her touch like Kyoto does....
"And the emperor will ask for them. The advisors have grown desperate and
they'll bring the matter to him eventually. He's no fool, he'll know the
true portent of that decision, and he'll want to gather all the wisdom he
can before choosing one way or another." Belatedly, the woman remembers to
focus on Saigô Tsugumichi's words. "A lot will depend on what the Sumeragi
will have to say. Which way will they go: war and opening our arms to
embrace that which is within our reach, or peace and focusing inward on
taking the time to bring this country to a level that can compete with the
westerners?" She blinks as she hears this. The question seems easy enough,
and the Sumeragi's answer to it certain. "I don't need you to kill anyone.
I need information on what they will choose, and I believe you're the only
one who can breach their security. If they'll choose war, I must know
beforehand so I can stop them."
She laughs. "And why would a man like you do such a thing, Saigô-sama?"
Locking her gaze with his, she dares to question further. "Why would you
support peace?" If anyone heard her, they'd be appalled. One doesn't
question the actions of a person with such a stature. One bows and
gracefully accepts his commands. Not her, as both of them know.
"Perhaps because of this name I bear, Sakurazukamori-san. Perhaps because
I have fought wars--because I have *felt* how they befoul human hearts and
how they leave nothing in their wake but ashes, rotten pestilence and
hatred. Never justice. Never peace."
Sakurazukamori-san.
There is a dissonance in that name that wasn't there before. It's what she
is. It's who she is, more than the name of a little girl who died long ago.
Keiko...no, she is Sakurazukamori. The sounds of that name embrace her and,
even if she can sometimes feel the cold that goes with it, it's the only
one that she has for the world to know.
Assassin.
Refocusing on the man, she toys with his answer for a while, turns it in
her mind this way and that, and eventually finds it to be true. Adequate.
In the time of a heartbeat, her decision is made. "I'll turn my eyes toward
the Sumeragi clan and tell you what you want to know," she says even as she
bows to take her leave. In the blink of an eye, she's gone from the garden
where blue jasmine us freshly been planted next to the terrace's southern
edge.
Quickly, she makes her way through the city, and again she stops when her
steps bring her next to the house owned by the Sumeragi. There's a light at
one of the windows, a small one, as if it had been forgotten. On impulse,
she climbs up the wall like a thief.
The small study is empty. The only things alive are the small wards that
have been set to protect the house. Small, and insignificant for her.
Gently, the Sakurazukamori parts the delicate spell's fabric as she would a
curtain, then she steps inside the room.
Ice.
Inaudible crystal bells chime in the night and she tenses violently,
feeling the net of a ward she hadn't perceived close over her.
"Welcome, Keiko."
The voice has reached her just as she was about to rip through the spell
and reveal herself. In a slow motion, she turns to find Yuta's dark gaze
set on her. The ward is his, she suddenly realizes, and he set for her. He
has stopped her from disclosing what they both know, but have never voiced
aloud. He's not the lost boy lacking talent, leaking power that she thought
he was when she first laid eyes on him, four years ago.
He's a man who fights and gives everything to his clan in the best way he
can.
He's a Sumeragi--the Sumeragi's brother.
He's hers.
And when he calls her name--the little girl's name--the Sakura's branches
rustle with a gentle, ethereal wind. The sounds warm her, enfold her and
make her feel safe. It's a spell, a powerful one, for it can even make the
Sakurazukamori title fade for a time.
"You're always welcome here. You don't have to sneak inside like a
burglar," he says, smiling, chiding her for childish behavior. As she steps
toward him, the knowledge she gathered tonight turns and turns around
inside her mind.
Sumeragi Tokio is coming to Tokyo, summoned in a way she cannot ignore. It
may be that she'll be given the opportunity to end her game, at last.
Sakurazuka Keiko holds her revenge in her hands. She holds him tight as she
reaches his side, and closes her eyes in contentment as his arms encircle
her and press her body against his. She smiles, satisfied with the sweet
taste of her impending vengeance. Then, he whispers words in her ear.
Soft, impossible words that fade in the night.
She trembles in his arms.
And she holds him close, reaching out beyond the edge of the world to
touch his heart and his soul. There's silence in the room as the lantern's
light falters, and as the aura around the house shifts.
There's silence, as both lovers' ethereal wings enfold one another.
End of chapter 3.
--
Notes:
Satsuma: powerful clan of Kyûshû island, southern Japan. Allied to the
Chôshû, they brought about the Meiji Restoration.
Saigô Tsugumichi: political figure and admiral. Born in the Satsuma. He
fought against the Tokugawa and led a punitive expedition against Taiwan in
1874. He's the brother of Saigô Takamori, who led a bloody rebellion in
1877 against the government that had decided to disarm the samurais.
Tsugumichi refused to join his brother and remained loyal to the Meiji
government.
--
Aïe on nous fait croire / Que le bonheur c'est d'avoir
De l'avoir plein nos armoires / Dérisions de nous dérisoires / Car
Foule sentimentale / On a soif d'idéal
Attirée par les étoiles, les voiles / Que des choses pas commerciales
(Alain Souchon - Foule Sentimentale) --
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