http://clampfix.fanworks.net/tb-fix/diary.txt </head><body><pre> I've seen a lot of fanfics about Subaru and Seishirou. I can't help but wonder how Hokuto felt about what happened when Seishirou told her brother about the bet. This is wild speculation. :) Really wild. Hope it works for you. *********************** Hokuto Sumeragi's Diary Keep out! *********************** Dear diary, I told Subaru to go to the hospital to talk with Sei-chan. He's been so miserable ever since Sei-chan got hurt protecting him from that woman. So I told him to go. But still. The look on Seishirou's face when that woman attacked. It was so... blank. I spoke with Subaru at breakfast. About him. About Seishirou. I told him to be careful. To not go far away from me. I think maybe I should reconsider letting Sei-chan get so close to him. That bad feeling I had about him is back. It's like he's another person sometimes. Two different people in one skin. But he cares for my brother. Why else would he have placed himself between Subaru and that woman? How could anyone not love Subaru? I wish... I wish I knew who the real Seishirou Sakurazuka is. One year. One whole year, and sometimes I think I know, sometimes I wonder. I hope Subaru comes back quickly. * * * Dear diary, I knew the moment it happened. Something was terribly wrong with Subaru. So I told grand-mother. She left in a hurry. I'm really worried now. Why was she so scared? * * * Dear diary, Grand-mother brought him home. She told me everything that happened. Sei-chan... no, I won't be calling him that anymore. Seishirou Sakuramori. The Sakurazukamori. He tried to kill my brother. The man I let into our lives for a year, the one I finally hoped would always be there for my brother, tried to kill him. In a way, he did. Subaru... I'm scared. He won't eat anything. He just lies on his bed and looks at the wall. Staring, eyes wide open. He looks at me, but doesn't even see me. He won't talk to anyone. Not even me. He has totally withdrawn from the world. * * * Dear diary, I never should have let that man into our lives. This is all my fault. I thought something about him was, off somehow. Nothing big really. Sometimes he'd have no expression whatsoever when he thought no one was looking. And then there was that glint in his eyes when he looked at Subaru. So many little things, that time after time I eventually dismissed. I should have killed him when I had the chance. (1) But Subaru was just so *happy* when he was with us. Teasing my twin about that was so much fun. I wanted Subaru to have someone that would love *him* for who and what he was. Who didn't think he was strange or different. And when we were together, even *he* seemed happy. Content somehow... I was wrong. I was so wrong. Of course, everything seems so obvious, now that we know. Subaru... Subaru still won't come out of his room. He won't even look at me anymore. I wish I could die. * * * Dear Diary, I am a fool. I wanted so much for my brother to be happy, to know love, that I let a monster destroy him. My brother has gone to a place, far away... I am Hokuto Sumeragi. My responsibilty is to protect the head of my clan. My brother. I failed. The Sakurazukamori will come for him. I must make sure Subaru is one day strong enough to face him. I will offer to take my brother's place in death. If nothing else, the tought of hurting Subaru this way will appeal to Sakurazukamori. And with my last spell, a spell that requires the caster's death, maybe, just maybe, I can change things. I hope. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I'll always be with you. I love you Subaru. _________________________________________________ (1) refers to TB vol.5, when she was making cookies. She held a knife to Seishirou's throat and told him she'd kill him if he ever hurt Subaru. The cookies then started to burn... One wonders if she would have managed to do that though... Yuzuriha. Comments and flames *gulp* at yuzuriha@geocities.com (GAH! I am now very depressed...) </pre><p><a href="./">Back</a></p><p><a href=http://www.dreamhost.com/donate.cgi?id=216><img border=0 alt="Donate towards our web hosting bill!" src=https://secure.newdream.net/donate1.gif></a></p></body></html>