http://clampfix.fanworks.net/tb-fix/killme06.txt </head><body><pre>Disclaimer: Tokyo Babylon = not yui's Killing Me Softly by Miyamoto Yui Chapter 6 - Dai kirai... (I hate you so much...) It came back to that cursed bet we had made many years ago. As the petals floated to the ground, I had looked up to the branches which mercilessly let these petals fall at their own will. As a child, I had run to catch them in my hands. Laughing happily, I giggled and made my own pile in the park. And the people stared at me strangely as they whispered around me. But I did not care. So what if I had no parents? I had always lived alone never really caring to know who my parents were anyway. For if they were important, than they would have already made their appearances in my life. The pile became bigger and bigger until I jumped into them like a bird. Laying there, I blinked my eyes and looked at the sky. The people dispersed and became scarce. But there I laid unable to move. I knew that if I did, I would cry. I always thought that humans were so weak to be quick to cry and yet I found myself doing the same thing. A tear had come out from the side of my left eye. Crunching my fist, I was unable to control the pouring that had ensued. I was well aware of my loneliness. But I had never really thought of it until then. When I saw those people pass by me with no care as to my well-being. Instead, they had turned away their faces and gossiped to all sides of me. There was no one to touch... No one to be lonely with... Nothing to relieve it... And so, I became numb inside. From that time on, everything was in a dull state. Nothing was too happy or too sad. It just was the way it was. When I had grown older, there was a boy crying before the sakura tree. Touching it, he began to cry more. I never really paid attention to any of my prey that I had ever killed, but I remembered that beautiful face. As he turned his head to me with tears, again, I felt guilty. Without knowing it, my index finger had wiped away his tears as I knelt down to him. Looking at me, he sniffed not knowing who I was... ...the one who had given him the mark of death. At this, I felt a little sad... I wanted him to remember... Wrapping my arms around him, I hugged him tightly saying, "Don't cry. you shouldn't cry." I was trying to convince myself of that too as I had my own tears rising, and yet my pride resisted against it. And my voice indicated nothing but comfort to the boy. "But I want to cry," he had answered. "I have to smile all the time for my sister; but this time, I want to cry..." That lump inside of my chest crunched up and I embraced him more until I put him to sleep. Looking around, I kidnapped him to bring him to a remote side of the park. There, I touched his face softly with the back of my head. But that wasn't enough. I kissed his forehead and then his lips, which were always so soft and wet. Holding him, I felt that lingering and stinging pain go away. My loneliness had evaporated. I felt like a child in the park again not caring about the people around me. It was then that I thought, "I shouldn't have..." I should have let you live. But my pride got in the way. Holding him, I brought him back to his shrine. At the entrance, I laid him down to his side, but I had left my school uniform top for him to lie on. I think I did it to irritate his grandmother. I think she even burned the thing when he was sent to his room, but I know I had given him my uniform. There are so many things I forget, but no, not you Subaru. I remember everything... "Sakura osuki desu ka?" As I look about the room after every annoying person leaving me, I get up to go to the roof. Leaning on the rail, I smile seductively... "Hai." Yes, everything, Subaru... "Do you know why the sakura are so pink?" Then, now, or in the future, you will never escape me... "They're the blood of the dead corpses buried under them." I will find you. You don't remember me, don't you? But I won't have to find you... "Remember me, please..." ...if you are already in my veins, aren't you? I- Hitting my hand on the gate, I calmly take it away. The lingering and stinging feeling was coming back to me with full force. I watched you for so long... If I don't kill you now... I'll never do it, Subaru... Twisted as it may seem, You're mine. And mine alone... my beautiful prey... no one will touch you... and mold you like I will... no one will hurt you... as I will... I hate you so much, I love you. -- author's note: argh! aiya...so out of character! but i didn't even want to use the world love, but I think it's okay now. it makes sense. i'm so mad at myself for not making it any better...* sighs * yes, yui is a perfectionist...</pre><p><a href="./">Back</a></p><p><a href=http://www.dreamhost.com/donate.cgi?id=216><img border=0 alt="Donate towards our web hosting bill!" src=https://secure.newdream.net/donate1.gif></a></p></body></html>