NOTES: Not much happens, except for PostCoital!FxKyou, Fuuma
Character Development, a Yuuto cameo, and an tiny little flashback at
the end that /I/ think is rather yummy.
'thoughts'
/flashbacks/
/"flashback dialogue"/
A little note on characterization: I /am/ aware that people will find
some of the interpretations of the characters to be somewhat unusual.
Kakyou's in particular. Let's just say, in Kakyou's case, I think
it's a /possible/ Kakyou and it /is/ explained. As for Fuuma, I
basically hate the "possesion" theory (in other words, I do NOT think
that Dork!Fuuma is still in there somewhere). My interpretation of
Fuuma is also in here, partly at least. This is all to say, I
appreciate comments, but do take into account that these
interpretations of the characters aren't exactly the ones lots of
people are used to. I /would/ like to know if I'm pulling the
characterization off credibly. ^^
ANGEL'S FALL
Chapter 4
Fuuma sank back at Kakyou's side, among the tangle of the yumemi's
robes and his own haphazardly strewn clothing.
"When did you dream up the bedding?" he asked after a minute or so,
his voice still a little breathless.
Kakyou let out a dry laugh. "Contrary to what you might think, laying
on my back on cold floors is not something I find particularly
amusing."
"Could've fooled me..." Fuuma purred, reaching out to tangle his hand
in Kakyou's long hair. He sighed in temporary contentment, his eyes
slowly drifting shut.
He always needed a few minutes to recover after sex.
'Just for a little while... I can stay here for a little while...'
He knew Kakyou was watching him, he could feel the catlike eyes on
him. It didn't matter for the moment. For just a moment, he could lie
back with his eyes closed and catch his breath.
/"You /can/ stay, you know. Just to catch your breath, of course."/
/too tired to leave anyway just this once nothing's going to happen if I stay./
Fuuma frowned slightly, his hand still tangled in Kakyou's hair.
/And when his eyes drifted open he found an arm draped over his
waist, and a warm body pressed against his back. Words were being
whispered in his ear./
Fuuma sat up, his movements brisker than was usual for him. He
grabbed his pants and pulled them on, for once not bothering to do it
as if he were the star of his own personal porn film.
"You're leaving then." It was a statement, not a question, and
Kakyou's voice was flat as he delivered it.
"I want a smoke." Fuuma replied with a hint of a smirk.
Kakyou glanced at him unconcernedly. "You don't smoke."
"I don't?"
"A drag or two to get under the skin of whoever happens to be
sakurazukamori doesn't qualify you as a nicotine addict. It just
makes you annoying."
Nevertheless, a box of cigarettes materialized in Kakyou's hands.
"/Real/ cigarettes." Fuuma protested as Kakyou made as if to hand them to him.
The yumemi merely shrugged gracefully. "I don't see the difference."
"I wouldn't expect you to." Fuuma replied as he got to his feet.
"They're no less real than what we just did, and you seemed to enjoy
that just fine." Kakyou continued in a bored tone of voice. "Why
don't you just say you can't stand the thought of actually /staying/
with someone you just fucked?"
Fuuma didn't reply. The air crackled around him as he collected the
energy necessary to rip a hole through the wall of Kakyou's paper
prison.
"Sweet dreams, Kakyou." He said in his usual slow drawl, his hand
lazily tracing the contour of Kakyou's jaw.
With that, he left the dreamscape, emerging at the side of Kakyou's
bed, right where he'd entered.
The silence was interrupted only by the blipping monitors and
Kakyou's light, even breathing. Fuuma looked down at the comatose
yumemi for a long time before walking out of the room.
* * * * * * * * * * * * *
The void that the Dark Kamui had ripped in the dreamscape's fabric
didn't simply banish after he left. It seemed to harden around the
edges and then contract, closing quickly but gradually. Much the way
a bloody scar might harden and then close, except much faster.
Kakyou wondered briefly what it must be like, to know you left scars
in your wake the way the Kamui of the Dragons of Earth did. Perhaps
that wasn't entirely fair. The seventeen year old had as much
potential to heal as to scar.
And some types of healing left horrible scars.
Kakyou glanced down at the pack of cigarettes in his hand.
Thoughtfully, he tapped one out of the box. A lighter appeared in his
hand, and he lit the cigarette. He held it delicately between his
slender fingers, studying the way the edge burned as the smoke rose
up.
"/Real/ cigarettes? Do I even know what they smell like?"
Not first hand, of course. His knowledge of that, as of so much else,
came from second hand experience. In this case, it came from nine
years of spying in on Sumeragi Subaru's dreams in the hope of
catching fleeting glimpses of the onmyouji's dead sister.
The smell of nicotine had come at first from Subaru's memories of
Seishirou. Eventually, as the onmyouji became more and more a pale
shadow of the boy he had been, the smell had ceased to be a memory of
another. And over the past few months, Kakyou had gotten a still
sharper knowledge of it, from a source much more immediate. Fuuma's
breath never smelled of cigarettes - the real reason Kakyou knew he
didn't smoke except as a sometime affectation - but his clothes often
did, a silent testimony of the company he kept.
He closed his eyes for a moment and brought the cigarette to his
lips, poised to inhale. Instead he wrinkled his nose in distaste. He
flicked the cigarette away, and both it and the lingering smell
disappeared in the shadows of the dreamscape.
"You were right. It really is a disgusting habit."
Kakyou stood and picked up the discarded robe and slid it around his
shoulders, shrugging into it with an unconscious grace. He frowned at
the hastily conjured bedding, and the last evidence of what had
happened between him and the Dark Kamui vanished.
The seventeen year old Kamui was not the company Kakyou would have
chosen. But any company was better than none, and Fuuma's occasional,
odd tenderness had proved to be a surprising comfort in Kakyou's
otherwise dreary existence. The yumemi had come to almost enjoy the
visits, despite Fuuma's often caustic moods and the frequent and
spontaneous bursts of desire that just /had/ to be satisfied.
But not this time.
The power to know the future through dreams is a funny, erratic
thing. It's always too late when a yumemi sees a vision of the
future, but these visions can come minutes or years before the fact.
Sometimes they come in bits and pieces, spread out over time. And
there's no guarantee that a yumemi will know the reasons for what is
seen.
Long before ever laying eyes on the dark, handsome teenager, Kakyou
had known that he would meet someone who could make Wishes come. He
had also known that this person would promise to grant his.
Recently, however, Kakyou had learned that he would break that promise.
Tonight, Kakyou had been sure that for the first time, Fuuma had
meant to stay. The teenager had seemed altogether too content and
relaxed laying beside him in the aftermath of sex. And Kakyou was
thankful for whatever it was that had darkened the young man's
expression and made him change his mind.
The Dark Kamui was the last person he wanted to be spending time with
at the moment.
* * * * * * * * * * * * *
The wind whipped Subaru's coat around him as he paused to light a
cigarette. He leaned against the wall of one the buildings adjoining
the alley, thinking the night was almost disturbingly quiet. The fact
that it was almost 2 in the morning didn't matter in his estimation,
and the thought that perhaps what disturbed him was the absence of an
amused, taunting drawl breaking the silence of his life never
occurred to him.
He smoked in silence for a couple of minutes, finally snubbing out
the half-smoked cigarette on the wall he was leaning against. He took
off his bloody glove and placed it in the pocket of the red trench
coat before pushing himself off the wall and leaving the alley.
It had been almost five nights since the sleeping city seemed quieter
and empty. Five nights since nothing and no one had cracked the cold
shell of his detachment.
He was beginning to see the truth in Seishirou's long gone words,
about there being little difference between a rock and a human being
to the Sakurazukamori.
* * * * * * * * * * * * *
It was mid-afternoon the next day when Subaru stepped out for a walk.
He very seldom left Seishirou's house before noon. It wasn't that got
home late and therefore slept late, in truth, he hardly slept at all.
Mornings simply didn't agree with him anymore. Afternoons, however,
appealed to him. There was something about the way shadows began to
lengthen and the light began to fade in a crimson, almost bloody way
that called out to something deep within the onmyouji. One might
almost have said that it moved him.
He didn't get much farther than his front door that afternoon.
Waiting in the shadows across the street stood a tall man, dressed in
impeccable suit and coat, blonde hair tousled by the breeze. As
Subaru stepped from the house, the man crossed the street and came to
meet to him.
"Sumeragi Subaru, I presume?" he asked in a light, courteous voice.
He held out his hand, and Subaru shook it somewhat bemusedly "My name
is Kigai Yuuto. I've been looking for you."Ê
"And why would that be, if I may ask?"
"An associate of mine requests your presence at City Hall. I am here
to convey the invitation."
"And just who is waiting at City Hall that is so eager for my company?"
The man called Yuuto smiled in what could have been either amusement
or common courtesy. "Why, the other Dragons of Earth, sakurazukamori."
* * * * * * * * * * * * *
Waiting, Fuuma decided irritably, was the single most excruciatingly
mind-numbing experience a human being could be subjected to, either
by choice or by force. It wasn't that he had nothing /to do/ while he
waited... it was simply that one can never fully be distracted from
it. No matter /what/ you do to pass the time, in the back of your
mind you always know you're waiting.
It was the uncertainty implicit in waiting that irritated him. Fate
and personal history had made Fuuma somewhat obsessive about control.
He knew that, in the end, his own destiny was largely out of his
hands... which was all the more reason to keep as tight a rein as
possible over the details of his life as it approached it's
inexorable conclusion. If he was going to be asked to give his life
in a cosmic, apocalyptic struggle, he'd be damned if that life wasn't
going to be /exactly/ what he wanted it to be.
One could argue (and Kanoe often did, intrusive bitch that she was)
that this made him rash, impulsive and extremely fallible. It was
true of course. Over the past few months, Fuuma had become what might
be best described as addicted to instant gratification. This would
have been seemed very unlikely to anyone that had known the young man
a mere year ago, but in truth, it wasn't so very strange. Fuuma, was,
after all, a teenage boy... and a teenage boy that had spent most of
his life putting /his/ need for self-gratification in the back seat
while he concentrated on trying to meet unrealistic expectations. It
didn't really matter whether this expectations came from an outside
source, like his father, his teachers or the memory of a dead mother,
or whether he set them himself while trying to fit into molds which
he had always felt were too restrictive. No matter how much he
repressed himself, he always fell short, he always had this vast
sense of insatisfaction, of never being truly sated.
For a long time, Fuuma had known that the walls he'd built around his
true self were cracking. He'd known the level of self-denial he
imposed on himself would break, and that possibly he would break with
it. This had indeed happened.
After all, what boy Fuuma's age, when suddenly finding himself the
vessel of incontainable power, wouldn't react precisely as he had,
throwing aside rules and conventions and even morality? What
seventeen-year-old boy, upon discovering he was virtually an
unstoppable force wouldn't automatically assume that he was entitled
to satisfy his desires when and where they struck? There was no
longer anyone he had to answer to, and as for the one person that
might have stopped him... well, Kamui didn't really seem to be trying
very hard.
/"I wouldn't expect you to understand it. Seeing as how you subscribe
to the 'I see, I want, I take' mentality."/
As always, Kakyou's words from five days ago had been scathingly on the mark.
But however impulsive he might be, Fuuma was far from an idiot. He
was also uncannily perseptive, and the years of repressing himself
had taught him an iron self-control, which he could exercize if the
situation required. If the possible rewards were tempting enough.
Fuuma was well aware that this particular game called for patience
and a machiavellian scheming of the sort he didn't usually bother
with. Which left only /one/ real question...
Was Subaru worth the wait?
/"Was it worth it? Waiting six years to play your little game with a
teenage boy?" he'd asked, no more than mildly curious./
/Seishirou had laughed softly, his fingers trailing across the skin
of Fuuma's bare back./
/"Of course. Beautiful young men are always worth it, whether they're
the Thirteenth Head of the Sumeragi Clan, or overconfident sluts at
the mercy of their hormones."/
/And Fuuma had closed his eyes as the older man's lips grazed the
back of his neck and the hands moving over his body became more
aggresive; not caring if Seishirou was laughing at him, or using him
just as much as he'd used the Sumeragi nine years before./
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